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About the handicapped children’s destiny; premature deaths

An answer to Anca


My name is Anca and I have a few doubts regarding the soul of the kids that were baptized and died. I have these doubts (I read many books until now, written by different fathers) since my daughter died at 4 days after she was born. Thanks to God’s love she succeeded the 3 conceals: Baptism, Anointment and Eucharist. My awareness tells me that Anastasia (this was my daughter’s name) is in heaven and she is enjoying God’s glory. But some thoughts torture me (I think they are from the Antagonist): if she died so soon and she hadn’t had time to pray here on earth, can she do that there in heaven? Does she have the brain healthy (if she would be alive she wouldn’t be able to pray because she was born with microcefaly and psychologically speaking she was retarded)?
These thoughts torture me and don’t give me a minute of peace: What is Anastasia doing there in heaven? Everybody tells me that she is an angel, but I want to hear more than that. For instance, can you confirm me that she has “the power” to pray, that she is aware about us, that she has self-conscience (thing very important to me), that she is a life fountain and that, there were she is, she is not mental handicapped? Before I decided to write you I looked in different works about this subject and I couldn’t find anything. I wait your answer and I supplicate you to mention us in your prayers: me (Anca), my husband (Viorel) and our 4 years old boy, healthy (Adrian). Thank you very much.


My dove sister Anca, may God bless you!
I don’t want to multiply the words that others repeated already to you; I am not going to say that Anastasia is a baby angel. You can find baby angels only on catholic calendars put in the kitchen, but God’s angels have all the same age, meaning that they don’t grow from little to adult, so we could draw them chubby and with wings. Anastasia is human, human as God looks, human in breath-taking fullness and greatness of this word, a human being in whose body Christ “dressed” when he came on earth. Anastasia’s body wasn’t less valuable than His happy body and nothing from what was That wonderful body missed from our little girl’s body. I began to talk about angels, reproving the catholic calendars, because not only the angels are all the same age, I could say even without an age, although they have it, but also all the people have the same age, Christ’s age. We don’t have time to be sad because of that disease that you mention on Anastasia, because that disease remained in her body, not because this would have made some damage to God’ dough, but because God ordered to be this way and that Anastasia’s body to pass away in this earthly life. I said it once and I’ll say it for a 1000 times, that Anastasia’s body isn’t less valuable than Christ’s body, because all human beings’ bodies are Christ’s and if somebody would be born without legs or hands (as we all know these things are happening because of the wickedness, and not necessary our parents’ wickedness but humans’ wickedness), their bodies are still made from the same priceless dough as Christ’s body.
Anybody, however healthy and beautiful it would be passes away and becomes what it was before, returns in the earth from where it was taken. That’s why I’m saying that there is no difference between bodies and neither the illness nor the old age “hurts” the bodies so they would be different than Christ’s body, because they are made by God’s hands so by this they are clean. When Christ will come He will resurrect these bodies, He’ll gather them as gold, the eternal gold and life springing, and will make all of us again, the same, but renewed.
If we imagine that our bodies are made up by gold, and death is a huge roaster where they are thrown, after becoming antiquated to be melt and remade, we will better understand why there’s no difference between bodies, if all are made up by the same matter.
If we melt a broken statue and a brilliant one, it won’t be any difference because they are made up by the same matter and the dab will make them again better and whole. In the same way our bodies are all made up by the same matter and in the Resurrection day all of them will be the same, will have the same age, Christ’s age. There won’t be children, there will be people.
Why didn’t the Dab do all the bodies perfect if the gold is the same? He did that from the beginning, Adam and Eve were made, like the Bible said “very good” but the Devil, bringing the sin, he distorted them.
But we believe that for the One who made good from the beginning, making us from nothing, it will be very easy to renew what was broken, and all will be “very good” forever, because the Devil and the sin won’t be there anymore.
But, until then, in Heaven, people are without bodies, but only with their soul. The soul doesn’t have age, it doesn’t grow or decrease like the body and there’s no difference between a child’s soul or an adult’s soul, between woman’s soul or man’s soul because is physically unlimited like the Saint Parents are saying “being in the body isn’t its hostage” (St Gregory of Nyssa) and we can not name some qualities of the soul for appreciate its age.
Man’s age is Christ and the soul which is connected with Christ has Its age. Like this is Anastasia’s soul, her soul is now with Christ waiting for Resurrection day when the body and the soul will be one forever, like God created them. That’s why Anastasia is not only praying or mention us in her prayers and has self-conscience but she’s human, the perfect Human, the Human which was made by God exactly like He looks. Anastasia prayed even in that 4 days of her earthly life. How she won’t pray, if David said that even the moon, the stars, the ice, the fire and the north wind praise God?
How can we say that God’s look which gathered in her body and soul with the beginning of life and wisdom, how can we say after so many promises made by Christ, that this human being, even at an earthly age didn’t enjoy and felt in her body and heart, if David said that even the trees are clapping their hands when God appears? Could the illness stay between God and Anastasia? Anathema – this thought! Who can separate us from Christ’s love? was Paul, the Apostle, shouting, bringing hope in our hearts. This unknown mystery is the mystery of life, is the mystery of God’s love, love which was put in everything that we see and don’t see yet, because the creation recognize its Creator and flinch when He appears. You don’t need words or have to be mature or healthy for this flinch because it’s given by the power of God’s love.
That’s why David said a word that the Protestants can’t understand it today, because they don’t baptize the children: “From infant’s mouth and of those who suck you committed your praise” and later, St Paul will say “the infants too share His blood”. This praise is the flinch that I’m talking about, flinch that can’t be related in words, a pure flinch, flinch that takes us to eternity. This is a happy flinch in which Anastasia occurs too; flinch in where we should be all united.
At this kind of flinch I want us to get because it is what we desire, of course we desire it unknowing what we exactly want, because the eyes didn’t see, the ear didn’t hear and the heart wasn’t reached by those that we are talking about and in which we hope for.
May God bless all your family and that all the tribulation and sadness disappear, because we are made for happiness not for unhappiness. Pray for me.


Translated from Romanian by Todor Alina

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